In a couple of weeks the "Heaven on Earth" -conference will start off. I'm looking forward to it but I know it's going to be a busy week. First Soul Survivor and then Heaven on Earth. It's not sure if I will attend Soul Survivor this year. It's still very open. Anyway, one of my friends send me a text message this morning about the Heaven on Earth conference. The conference is located in an arena in Rotterdam, a city here in The Netherlands. If I decide to sleep at home I have to travel about 1,5 hours to reach the arena. Which is okay. But my friend decided it was better to just arrange a place to sleep. So she sends me this text message this morning saying: "Jac, I'm going to register for the ministry team so that I also have a place to sleep, maybe you can do the same thing, and for the record: you can pray!"

It cracked me up because I did do a ministry course a couple of years ago at Soul Survivor. If you want to be part of the ministry team at Soul Survivor you need to do a course. So did that but decided not to be part of the ministry team because I'm afraid that I can't pray for someone else... Yeah, I know: everyone can pray. But I'm very insecure and have some issues with myself regarding this, hehe. So I normally say to my friends: "can you pray?"
All my friends know & they joke about it...even my roommates!! Whenever dinner is ready and we are all together they both shout: "I'm not praying".

Gavin DeGraw

Going to see Gavin DeGraw @ BNN this week. Looking forward to it.

I love the first verse:
"So many people gonna say that they want you,
To try to get you thinking they really care,
But there's nothing like the warmth of the one who has put in the time and you know he's gonna be there"



Have you ever been so unhappy that you're almost making yourself so depressed. And that you don't see the good things in your life anymore? Well I have. I'm sure most of you are struggling and everyone has their own problems and worries. I'm worrying too much, esp. about my future. The recent week I have been so unhappy about everything. How am I ever going to finish college? How am I ever going to pay off studentloans? How am I ever going to be happy? Will I find a good job after college? Things that are running through my mind 24 hours each day. I don't know all the answers to these questions but I'm sure I'm not the only one who's unsure about the future. I'm fortunate to have a God who knows my future and who holds me in His hand.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Allergic part 2

Update about my allergic reaction (sorry, this is very random) I'm still not sure what it was. It only lasted for about three days and then it was GONE. So that's basically it.

Messing with my weblog

I'm kind of messing around with the layout of this blog so as you can see I dropped some images into this thing:-)

Divine Romance

Have been thinking a lot about love this week. I came across this song by Phil Wickham on facebook. Phil ia quite new for me. But I must admit I really like his music. I love this song and the lyrics say it all!

He is Risen!

Matthew 28: 1-10
After the Sabbath, at dawn on the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary went to look at the tomb.
There was a violent earthquake, for an angel of the Lord came down from heaven and, going to the tomb, rolled back the stone and sat on it. His appearance was like lightning, and his clothes were white as snow. The guards were so afraid of him that they shook and became like dead men.

The angel said to the women, "Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: 'He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.' Now I have told you."

So the women hurried away from the tomb, afraid yet filled with joy, and ran to tell his disciples. Suddenly Jesus met them. "Greetings," he said. They came to him, clasped his feet and worshiped him. Then Jesus said to them, "Do not be afraid. Go and tell my brothers to go to Galilee; there they will see me."

Today we remember that Jesus died for us on the cross

Matthew 27:45-56 From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land. About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"—which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
When some of those standing there heard this, they said, "He's calling Elijah."

Immediately one of them ran and got a sponge. He filled it with wine vinegar, put it on a stick, and offered it to Jesus to drink. The rest said, "Now leave him alone. Let's see if Elijah comes to save him."

And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit.

At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook and the rocks split. The tombs broke open and the bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life. They came out of the tombs, and after Jesus' resurrection they went into the holy city and appeared to many people.

When the centurion and those with him who were guarding Jesus saw the earthquake and all that had happened, they were terrified, and exclaimed, "Surely he was the Son of God!"

Many women were there, watching from a distance. They had followed Jesus from Galilee to care for his needs. Among them were Mary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James and Joses, and the mother of Zebedee's sons.


Today we were waching some funny video's on youtube. Until someone said oh I know a video it's not really funny but you should watch it. So yeah we watched it... it's a....well you need to see this yourself:

I think the moral of this story is: never buy a fake spider. eye is itching :-p

The iMac story

I'm working on an iMac at work. The computer is okay, it's not spectacular but it's working for me. Recently we bought a Canon photo camera at work. I tried to connect it with my computer but it wasn't working because I had to install the Canon photo program first. I mentioned this to my colleague and he gave me the install CD. I tried it but it wasn't working, I only got the ReadMe-file. So I mentioned this to my colleague and he said well I guess it doesn't work on an iMac you need to call the helpdesk. So did that and the guy at the helpdesk didn't understand why it wasn't working. So he went online on my computer, downloaded the program...still not working. After 1 hour on the phone (I'm not kidding) my colleague suddenly said: oh...I guess there are two CD's...I gave you the wrong one....


One God. One Church. One mission.

I made this video really quick...The footage is from last weeks conference: One God. One church. One mission.


I regret, I regret making fun of people who have allergic reactions to something...(sorry friends!!)

because what I've experienced this weekend is that I'm allergic to something as well... I know, MAJOR NEWS.

I've eaten something and I'm allergic to it... I have break outs everywhere on my legs. :-S (I know) It's even so bad that I can't really sit down...I'm still debating what to do at work tomorrow.

In these kind of situations I always call my mom. So I picked up the phone, called her up, explained the entire situation and she just laughed and said: " yeah, your dad has it too, I think it's genetic."


The worst thing is, is that my doctor is 2 hours away from me and I forgot my health insurance card and so can't go to the hospital... So I guess I have to see what happends and hope for the best.

I think this is God's punishment of me laughing at people. LOL

Some random stuff...

This morning it was snowing. The weather forecast mentioned that it would snow these past couple of days but every time I opened my curtains there was no snow.. I'm not a big fan of cold weather so I wasn't too disappointed but in a way it's cool to see snow...

This morning I walked out of the flat I live in and it started to snow. HARD. The first thing that came into my mind was: "please Lord, not a lot of snow...I want to be able to get home tonight"

You see, if there's a lot of snow the whole public transportation system in Holland shuts down. My second thought was "oh no I'm wearing my All stars". I just read Stephen's blog last night and he posted that there was snow and ice in Ireland and he fell walking out of the door, wearing All stars. A bad story and I didn't want to repeat him.. Anyway I managed to get into the bus & arrived at work safe. But I watched the weather closely today...Luckily all snow is gone now. I'm curious how tomorrow morning will look like.

Work was interesting today. I had this evaluation talk with my supervisor this afternoon. I'm doing well and there's nothing else to say. I love this job and would love to stay there but it's a freelance job and my contract is ending april 17th. I hope they will offer me a new contract but because this is a TV program and it's ending in April. I'm almost positive that I will be without a job after April. Which is kind of a stress factor for me. But I guess everything will turn out good in the end and I need to learn to put more of my trust in the Lord.

A day @ the beach in Katwijk

Please care

“But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold. My feet have closely followed his steps; I have kept to his way without turning aside.”- Job 23:10-11

Everybody has struggles or is going through hard circumstances. At the moment life is not so good to me. I know it's a part of life and I know this needs to happen in order for me to grow. But the hardest thing for me is that most people just ignore my problems, other peoples problems or just problems in general. It's understandable in a way because everybody has its own struggles. But wouldn't it be great if somebody just said to you "I don't understand. But I care and I'll try to understand."

And you know what, everybody needs that! It's not about the attention, it's just about the fact that somebody loves you & cares. That's what counts.

Thanks Kari for letting me hear this song